OK, I’ve been a lazy bastard. I’m just gonna admit it to you now.
I’ve watched way too much Star Trek Discovery this week. I even stayed up until 1:30am last night and watched the movie Silence with my mom. It’s like I’m compelled to sit on my a** this week.
Do you ever have weeks like that?
Something really interesting happened to me over five years ago that helped me be comfortable with being lazy. Back then, I had this huge 5,000-square-foot loft in downtown Los Angeles. A friend came to visit me for a few days and we just spent our days creating artwork.
Every time I took a coffee break or went to the bathroom, I’d see him watching TV or playing some game or just, in general, screwing off. He was working too. I couldn’t help but wonder, how the hell did this guy get so good when he spent this much time screwing off? I prided myself on being a really hard worker.
But, at the end of each day that this artist was there, I’d look at his work and wonder what magic this guy had that I didn’t have. I mean I was working, sweating, thinking, analyzing, researching… I was busting my butt at that time and my work wasn’t even half as good as his.
But there’s a difference between working and producing results. That’s taken me a long time to learn.
I used to think that people who worked hard got results. But that’s only 50% of equation. If all you are focused on is working hard, then how do you know when you’ve actually finished working?
If you’re like me, you don’t. You just keep working and working and re-working and re-working…
My old art teacher, Al Gury, used to say that one of his most important jobs was stopping the students before they screwed up their paintings. Obviously, I’m one of his slower learning students… But the message is clear to me now.
If you’re only working hard on your Work and you’re not also working on Yourself and taking care of Yourself, then you’re only doing half the job.
So I have a simple question: Is it at all possible that your Life and your Art would be better if you could let go of some of the control that you think you need?
What would you have to change in your life to allow this? Is there a Belief that you’d have to change to give yourself this permission?
I can tell you from experience that one of the hardest things for me to do was to learn how to trust the Universe.
When I created a piece of Artwork I was happy with, I — myself — wasn’t happy. I was anxious and I wanted to make sure that I could repeat that.
Now, that could just be me, but maybe you’ve felt that. Or you know somebody else that felt that.
So, what would you have to change in your life to enable you to trust the Universe more?
P.S. Last day to enroll in Sculpting The Face. Looking forward to seeing all the new faces tomorrow at 10AM Pacific.